end of the year exam results??
you don't wanna know... to make things a lil' easier -it sucks BIG time-
problems after problems come knocking on my door...
and I keep on wondering when the hell is all this gonna end?!?!
endless decisions to make and I always have the feeling I make the wrong choices... is it because I'm just plain stubborn or am I just feeling self-centered?
and to make things worst my life is like what you see in the movies...
great actors... superb drama settings... not to mention the undefeatable "Hollywood class" scripts...
people who pretend they know everything about me when in truth they know absolutely nothing which makes me wonder why...
people tend to "read" my thoughts but keeping quiet and not voicing out doesn't mean I'm agreeing with everything or anything at all... I try to suppress my thoughts so to not spark an argument which I know will last for a long time (no joke!)
sorry to say that
I guess I'm just unpredictable... sometimes I surprise myself when I thought about things that I'm capable of doing...
regrets in life?
perhaps a lil' of it here and there but believe me... its scarce and I mean it!
life is too short to ponder about past actions that cannot be undone so why dwell over it?
time cannot be undone and its not gonna wait for anyone either so just move on and forget the past...
to gain something you have to lose something of equal or higher value... that is what life is all about...
losing don't have much effect on me though... even if you lose something, you get to gain something new, sometimes better and on top of it all you get to keep the remaining ones...
I'm glad to have gained a lot these days so I guessed I made the right choice to lose some but then again I may be wrong...
it doesn't matter to me that news are flying in different directions and in various forms behind my back...
but note this...
I may not be a perfect friend but I do make a perfect enemy... provoke me and you will regret it for even I have no idea of what I'm capable of doing...
it doesn't matter if I did not "fit in" anywhere either...
I'm a lone ranger... will be and always be... I can do fairly well by myself...
but anyway enough about that or some people might self-declare that I'm bad-mouthing them (another thing that I don't seem to understand.. why?)
the thing is... I don't really like bad-mouthing people or talk bad behind their back but at times I just can't resist any longer because I just can't stand it! gossips ain't really my thing either...
but of course people says otherwise which is so whatever to me...
hell yea they don't know anything about me at all!
however I'm glad that some people actually DO care and those are the people that I least expected to do so but of course I do appreciate it...
do you know that sometimes a change or environment actually do you good?
I missed the time when I was in Sg Sedim with Sarah and SuhSian
the place there is so peaceful and tranquil...
on top of it all the camp wasn't a camp at all it was more of a vacation!
relaxing... fresh air... could things get better?
but when you enjoy something time tend to move faster and before I knew it I'm back to where I started...
the stressful life of a sixth former *sigh*
but then again life must go on...
somehow I got a feeling word will be circulating without me knowing after I post this (sorry but I tend to know things at the oddest times)
owh whatever...
I'm just too tired to care about these things anymore...
if anyone feels offended by my post then I have nothing to say because its psychology that you feel that way... its all in the head...
I believe in karma and what goes around eventually comes around...
I'm not saying that I'm a good person as some people regard me as the 'evil' one but note this...
I treat people the way people treat me so if I'm nasty towards you, I think you should know why...
this about wraps up my ranting for now...
until the next session of random rantings...
adioz~
Sometimes I wonder...
Why do I bother doing so much for
people when none ever appreciates it...
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